What is this?
Why am I thinking this way?
Who am I becoming?

I am not myself,
I can’t think straight.
I don’t want to eat.
All I do is smoke cigarettes and drink coffee.
I have lost all motivation and any desire to keep going.

I’m consumed with depression.
I’m physically, mentally, and emotionally drained.
Why is this happening to me?

I have to take 2 doses of sleeping pills just to get 3 or 4 hours of sleep, if that.
I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning.
I force myself to shower and get dressed.
I force myself to live.

I just want to be myself again.
Things need to go back to normal.
I want my happy and bubbly personality back.
God, please stop this,
it’s killing me.